I don't know what to do anymore.
Honestly, I give up.
My life is going to kill me, all this stress building is going to make me explode, and realistically I don't think that will be a bad thing.
I want to go back to being a child. When things were easy and you really didn't have to worry about anything. Everyone else worried for you.
Nothing is going right. I swear everything is literally falling apart.
It has gotten to the point where I don't even want to talk to myself. I don't even want my own company. I spend every waking moment tearing myself apart. The loneliness and failure is consuming me, in every way.