Think, Believe, Become.

"As you believe, so you become" - Unknown.

There once was a girl, who thought that, if someone thought it, it must be true. I'm sad to confess that that girl is,  yours truly. Now me being the type of girl I am, I tend to take things too literal, and I take most everything to heart and alot of the time it leaves me with nothing but heart ache and depression. This, I've learned is no one elses fault but my own. I know that I need to make a change, and I need to loosen up a tad and forget what others have to say about me, and not care about what others think they know.

What I have learned though, is that you have the power and the ultimate say over what you become, and who you believe. So here's to a newer me, and you - whoever you are -

• Think - about what you want, are or could be.
• Believe - whatever those things are
• Become - what you know you have the power to become.

The mind is a wonderful tool, folks, use it....

                                           ...and Smile...  :)

So I've decided I'm going to try and start - what I'll call - a new segment. How this will go : I will have a quote for each post and my post will be about how it fits into my life at the moment.
Don't give up on me quite yet :).

"When life gives you lemons, make lemonade. Then figure out how to sell it for $5.00 a glass." - John Woodman.
      In the last 2 months or so my emotions have been challenged. I've moved into my fathers house which is great but it still feels a little odd. It probably feels that way because I've lived with my mother for as long as I can remember and I'm just used to my fathers house, as a visiting place. Having moved means I had to leave my job, which was fine with me, until I realized its a little difficult to get a new one. I have applied to a few places and have yet to go around and hand out resumes, I need a job desperately.
 Along with moving and having NO money, I have reunited myself with my ex, twice removed LOL. This was a hard thing for me to do, because in the summer while we were apart, my so called 'friend' decided to move in on this and they got a little closer then i would have liked, she is the same girl my last post was about, and she is most of the reason I moved in the first place. But I'm not here to blame my problems on her, although my depression was caused by her actions, its not fair to blame everything solely on her. anyways, i got a little off topic there, me and my Boyfriend have been working things out and its actually going pretty good, the only problem now is the distance, which has been and is going to be difficult to overcome, but we'll manage.
  the last thing that really got to my head was my first visit to my moms since I moved. my first official day there, i went back to my high school (my brother just started) to have lunch with my brother, and then had plans to hang out with my 'best friend'. the way her schedule had worked out she had a 2 hour lunch period, so we mad plans to take advantage of that :) i was so excited, so you could know my hurt when she totally blew me off, for who other then her boyfriend and previously mentioned girl! Yes, I got ditched by my best friend, for my worst enemy, and her boyfriend, more then once throughout the day might i add. then later i found out that she texted her boyfriend to come to the school, because quote "she was bored and had nothing better to do for lunch", how awesome!!! but me being desperate to hangout with her, we made plans to do something after school. so she drove me to her place. But instead of actually hanging out she went over to the neighbours and started a conversation, i was fine with this until it lasted over an hour and a half, once it ended her boyfriend showed up, cause apparently she made plans with him. so once again she ditched me, she drove me home early so she could hang out with him. it really was probably the worst day Ive ever had.. so naturally it could only get better right? wrong... at dinner that night, I got into a huge fight with my Mother, it ended in her going to her room, slamming the door and not coming back out till morning. it was horrible, and yes I said HER going to her room.

So my quote for today, to me fits well.
   when you get faced with issues, and problems that you have a hard time getting over it, you make lemonade, "then figure out how to sell it for $5.00 a glass". Make the best of the situations, things always have a bright side, you just have to be creative enough to find it. upon all of this happening, i have disconnected contact with my 'bestfriend' and her boyfriend as well, there is no need for negative people in my life, it only hinders me. I am finding myself and becoming a new, better person and it feels really good. It's also helpful that i have people who love and will support me!

Right Out Of My Mouth...

Thank you Ke$ha for saying what I needed too :)

"And look at what we all found out
Lookie here we all found out

That you have got a set of loose lips
Twisting stories all because you're jealous
Now I know exactly what you're all aboutAnd this is what you're all about

Girl, you're such a backstabber
Oh girl, you're such a shit talker
And everybody knows it

Girl, you're such a backstabber
Run your mouth more than anyone I've ever known
And everybody knows it
Back, back, backstabber
Talk, talk, talk, talk, talk, talk, talk, talk

I'm sick and tired of hearing all about my life
From other bitches with all of your liesWrapped up so tight, so maybe you should shut your mouth
Shut your fucking mouth
Honestly, I think it's kinda funny that
You waste your breath talking about me
Got me feeling kinda special really
This is what you're all about
Girl, you're such a backstabber
Oh girl, you're such a shit talker
And everybody knows it
And everybody knows it

Girl, you're such a backstabber
Run your mouth more than anyone I've ever known
And everybody knows it
And everybody knows it

Back, back, backstabber
Stabber, stabber
Back, back, backstabber

Girl, you're such a backstabber
Oh girl, you're such a shit talker
Girl, you're such a backstabber
Taking and twisting it down, you're so manipulating
Run your mouth more than anyone I've ever known
And everybody knows it

Taking and twisting it down, you're so manipulating
Girl, talk, talk, you're looking like a lunatic" - Ke$ha

But Theres a Side To You, That I Never Knew ...

So this post is specifically designed for a certain person. My hopes are that he will read this and know it's for him....

      I'd be lying if I said I didn't miss us, and I'm not a liar.
I realize that you're moved on, and personally I wish it wasn't with the person it is, but you never did listen to what I said about her, so it seems like you are made for each other...

     If i could go back in time I would change my mind about getting together again. I think that it was bad judgement on my behalf and I should have known better then to re-enter a bad relationship. I've learned now, that I don't need someone else to make up my mind for me. I also don't need to be told what I can and can't do, and what i can and can't look like. I'm a beautiful girl, and deserve to be treated like one.

     I still hope the best for you, I know you have potential because you are a great guy deep down, but you're not as good as you might think so step down from the pedestal you set yourself on, and start treating people with the dignity and respect they deserve. I would like to be friends, cliche or not, but I won't be able to as long as you are with my "best friend".

Things change a great deal, didn't they?  I really hope you read that, you always were waiting for my next post.

Self Sufficent.

That's all folks :)